unusual for me to blog, hahha cause now i'm at the library, skipped lecture, need to meet someone to discuss somethings later.

Many things happened! i really dunno wat to do, feel like giving up on many things in life. can i have a new life? can i change the things and decision that i have made? wat to do? i'm simply tired and weary of this life. i know that many will tell me to press on, move forward, etc. but too bad my love language is not simply word of affection. i feel that my heart is dead to many things and am simply like a dead corpse walking all around. wat's the purpose of being in this world- cold and hard-hearted. i know and i know many will tell me to turn back to jesus cause his the life and etc.... but have u ever think about it, the life that i'm going through is so different from many others in the world. life's so tough and i had many regrets in life. am i going to spent my life in a routine, or am i going to spent it as coluorful as i can. ok. this world is simply so hard- hearted, i got back stabbed recently. but who cares, sinca u like to talk about it why not print out a banner and hang it all around, and print out flyers and start distributing to the whole world. BAck stabbers. aiya, since u like to say then say lor. and the person recieveing those rubbish, hahah i can just conclude that u are simply a fool, u can just believe someone so easily. have been sick and simply hate to be bound by sickness, still continue wat i'm supposed to do. have been having very little rest. ok, i miss monday lessons cause i coukd not wake up jhahah. had many regrets in life, was thinking if i had continue pressing on, i might get her. hahha but the feeling is not there anymore, keep trying to find it back...... haix life is like that, when u pass by this village, u will never find the store again. hahah life's a difficult puzzled that need something complex and sophisticated to solve. many friends left me, but here comes a new batch of friends that are willing to stand by me. hahah friends that are willing to come out and listen to me as i speak my heart out, and pour out every single drip. haha thanks man. and especially thanks to jin ming lar, whenever i wanna go drinking, he's always there to drink with me, ahhaha but we never get drunk. thanks to chun for always going out for teh peng session even when i ask him out last minute or in the middle of the night. hahah thanks! and especially thanks to wende and junaidhi, the ballless guy and the pregenant woman. hahah always make fun of them hahaha. i know who cares for me the best, every decision i make, i will bear the consequences, and i will have courage to face it. so dun keep on reminding me about it. cause i simply know what i'm doing thanks!